Go Hard

why do I always do this to myself!?

two and a half months until my trip. I weigh 147. FML!!

It would be wonderful if I lost 15 pounds. Ughhh.

I’m doing the 30 day shred and will start going to the gym more for cardio.

People in China are going to laugh at me for being fat. And I won’t be able to get any clothes there!fakkk

Just at work right now, on my half. I’m happy cos I’m just drinking water, I didn’t get anything to eat or any drinks. I already had like 4 coffee drinks so what I need is water right now. I added up my calories and they were only at like 700 which is awesome. I relize it’s only 4 but still, thats pretty good for me. I’ll probably just have the almonds I bought or a smoothie for dinner. My stomach isn’t feeling great, I’ve been so bloated and stuff lately. Gah. PMS suckssss.

I think tonight I’m just going to chill and do my 30 day shred workout when I get home! I need to do it! My trip is like 2 and a half months away and I reallllly want to get fit and strong for it!

binged

On one and a half bars of chocolate. The kind with the creamy inside. I feel like I’m going to die. I capitulated and bought them and then used the excuse “i’m on my period” gahhhh

cw

145

YES

My bestfriend who also works at Starbucks is covering my shift, even though she has to open tomorrow. I love this bitch.